fatigued.

"It was a long, harsh winter."

In truth, winter has yet to come. But it feels so cold and dry outside, and the weather is bleak, so I guess one could credibly say winter ran over autumn and took the lead rush.

September passed by with so much humour, so much happening. September was probably the funniest month I've ever lived through. I met so many new, exciting people. They keep my life interesting.

In terms of fulfilment, I have felt empty. I refill my gas tank more than I refill myself. I have had so little alone time, so little quiet. Not that I want to be lonely, but it's refreshing to take a minute and just breathe.

But who has time for breathing when life is going on all around?

My first article was published in Celebrate Arkansas Magazine. Maybe it's just me, but it wasn't all that great. In fact, I'm kind of embarrassed by it. There are some editing errors that I'm pretty sure I did not put there. And if I did, how were they overlooked? It made me look so stupid.

I could criticise myself forever. But I'm just too tired to fight myself right now. Especially because I know I'll win and lose anyway.

I think this post is the result of me listening to sad songs and rereading sad e-mails. It's all just really fitting to my mood right now, I guess. People tend to gravitate toward things that match and complement their moods.

I'm just worn out.

The world is just a little too heavy for me today.